Monday, May 10, 2010

Falling off...

Why is it that I find it so hard to not fall off the wagon?  And then once off, it is so easy to find excuses to stay off.  About a month ago, when my son was born, I was very short on sleep and spending most waking hours around the hospital.  I was very tired and low on energy which means my body was craving energy dense high carb foods.  Plus for convenience sake, I was stuck with mostly fast-food restaraunts as options.  A salad from McDonalds just didn't seem to be what my body wanted.  So, I slipped.  I ran over to Rally's and bought a burger and fries.  But, I didn't stop there.  I thought to myself, "hey, you already gave in... why not grab a candy bar from the gift shop?  Maybe 2 of them."  I told myself that I'd go back on the diet once I got the family home.  But, I didn't follow through. 

You know, the low-carb diet is not bad at all.  And as long as I don't have many carbs in my system, my body usually doesn't crave sweets nor breads.  So, why is it so hard to get back up there, on the wagon.  How come it's so easy to push it off to anohter day?  Next month, I will be spending some time in Mexico.  Now, instead of going back on the diet, I'm telling myself, "when you return from Mexico, you should go back on the diet.".  Why is it that I tell myself to wait when I know it's best for me to change my habits now?  Even if it was too difficult to do low-carb abroad, I could squeeze in a few more weeks of low-carb before I go.   It's hard to understand the inner workings of my mind.  Why is the short term small high from carbs such a powerful de-motivating factor? 

Luckily, even off-the-band-wagon, I haven't gained back much weight.  But I haven't been losing fat either.  Thanfully, I have had some physical activity from planting my vegitable garden as well as other yard.  Without this, I'm not sure if I'd have gained more weight. 

For now, no promises on when I will return.  I might find motivation here in the next few days or I may just return to the lifestyle when I return to the country after 2-3 weeks in Pueblo, Mexico.  I'm just not sure yet.  Pathetic, huh? 

On a side-note:  A couple of days ago, I bought Wii Fit Plus to replace my old classic Wii fit.  And, I'm happy to say that even with clothing on, I am still under the 330 pound weight limit.  I'm not much into the exercise routines but find the balance games to be fun.  My 4 year old son likes to play them with me.

22 comments:

Tracey said...

I know it's easy to beat yourself up over it, but you're definitely not pathetic. These types of lifestyle changes are difficult and require time, thought, and energy we don't always have (especially when you experience a life-changing event like bringing home a newborn -- Congratulations, by the way!). It's especially ridiculous that we can't get our hands on fresh, healthy foods other than crappy fast food salads when we're in the hospital, but I've been in this boat before, too.

I read something recently on a low carb blog about how this way of eating is cyclical -- meaning that eating well gives us the energy to continue doing the work it takes to eat well (planing, shopping, and cooking), but just one significant slip makes us fall right off the energy train and renders us unable to do the work to get going again.

I found that to be soooo true for me. I've been back "on the wagon" for about three weeks now and feel great, but I have this sneaking suspicion that all it will take to derail me is one vacation, one family tragedy, one busy week where I can't find time in my kitchen, etc. I know this, because it's happened to me so many times before, and I hate getting super confident and cocky when I'm doing well, because it only makes me beat myself up more when I slip up.

I didn't realize I was going to write this much, but I guess I'm just writing to tell you how much I feel like I relate to this post, and to tell you to try not to feel guilty or beat yourself up. I think the only way to be successful is to be in the right mindset and to plan and to feel ready. Don't let anyone -- even yourself -- make you feel bad for "bad" choices, but do try to actively feel good about the "good" ones.

PJ said...

Yeah. I know this song too. I ask myself the same questions.

One thing is that I always told myself, "It's easy to get back to it." But that is said from the chemical perspective someone already LC. The minute you start eating starch or sugar, your chemistry changes, your tastes change, and a lot of lifetime habits are triggered (especially with foods that have grains like wheat).

It's taken a long time for me to understand that it's not, actually, easy to get back to it. And the reality is, the decisions you make at point D are based on chemistry at point D -- which is affected by point C, which is affected by point B, which is usually affected by some issue that boils down to the fact that none of us have a butler following us around with home cooked whole foods. I once said that willpower starts at the 3-carb level and I think that's more true now than I did then, because decisions tend to be "cascade failures". Every one changes your chemistry and makes it that much easier to make another one, and so on.

Normally I go LC and I lose a lot of weight fast. I'm huge, I should. Currently I've been VLC (V!) for 7 weeks and I haven't even lost all I would consider water weight, let alone more. I'm panicking. How can that be. It isn't fair. And I'm looking back at all the times I went off LC because you know, it was inconvenient, and then it just spiraled out, and by the time I got back I had regained whatever I lost in that sector or at least part of it. Now I'm thinking gee whiz, imagine if I added those times up together and where I would be now. The guilt doesn't help, but maybe it does, if it makes me take it more seriously next time.

PJ

Low Carb Daily said...

Just do the best that you can today.

cleochatra said...

Pick up Julia Ross' The Diet Cure. It has changed my family's lives for the better and is in perfect synch with any low carb plan.

Hang in there and congratulations on your wee one!

Anonymous said...

Face it we are addicts! I guess we need a 12 step program.

Gail Graham said...

I have finally reached a point in my life that I know eating low carb is the way I want to live my life...not just to lose some pounds. But I have also realized I will slip up. I have made other decisions in my life that include no white sugar or white flour. So when I do slip up, its going to be with a healthy cookie or something that at least gives me something healthy.

Matt said...

Hey, My name is Big Daddy D as well. Actually, I usually just go by "Big D." I am a carb addict too. I really liked your idea of carb cycling. I go 2 or 3 weeks of low carb, then have a sinful day or 2 of high carbs, then back to low carbs I have more persistent weight loss and I get to eat the foods I think I love, and when they make me feel sick or bloated, it is a nice reminder that sugar is not all it's cracked up to be.

Keep it low carb, but "reward" yourself with those occasional high carb days. It's the only way to go!!

Matt D

Cheryl Moore said...

Hi Big Daddy D! :) I stumbled across your site as I was searching for a taco recipe that I found a few weeks ago in the Woman's World magazine.

I like your site with all your recipes.

I cant find my magazine and my husband saw a commercial on tv for some kind of tomato/onion/salsa looking mixture. I told him it looked like the tomato mixture they put on the Taco Bell Drive-Thru Diet Crunchy Beef tacos and there was a recipe to make it at home in the Woman's World magazine.

If you know the recipe would you let me know? Thanks! :)

My blog page is at www.databasedesigns4u.blogspot.com.

Thanks again! :)

Daron said...

Cheryl,

Sounds like pico de gallo. Just dice up some tomatoes and onion and mix with some chopped up fresh celentro.

Carissa said...

I know how hard it is to get back on the diet wagon once you've fallen off; I've been there! I've just started the atkins, a couple of weeks ago. I've created a blog to keep track of what I eat, kind of as a food diary. I wish you the best of luck!

donna said...

Daron,

I've enjoyed reading your blog. I'm writing one about the low carb lifestyle as well, and thought I'd mention my 85/15 Rule. It really helps me to avoid "falling off" too frequently because it gives me a way to have my little treats all along the way. The low carb lifestyle seems more natural that way and less cyclical. You'll find it at www.healthygilifestyle.com,
Thanks for being so transparent!
Donna

Anonymous said...

Was looking for some good recipes and inspiration as I just started low carbing 3 weeks ago.
Found the great recipes, not the inspiration.

Sounds to me like you have been overwhelmed with the realized responsibility for this new young life and it threw you into a tailspin and all the healthy habits you have been gaining flew out the window.
Use your new baby as your inspiration to change for the good and for the long run. I'm sure that baby needs you to be around and be healthy.
Good luck.

Need2behealthy said...

Wow!! I thought there was noone that went through what I go through. You put it off and put it off and then before you know it (well at least me anyway) you gain more weight and a lot of time has passed by. But at least this doesn't make me feel so alone. I am so glad you have a blog.

Anonymous said...

Love your blog. Don't be discouraged. I too have tried every diet going The WORST was the Susan Powter low-fat thing(!!!), I lost 50 lbs on food that tasted like Kleenex (no fat) and my gall bladder as well.
I don't do Atkins, I do a variant which allows full-fat milk. Thanks for your recipes. A good resource. When you're ready you'll get back lowcarbing. A new baby in the house is an experience I remember well.

Bob said...

I've been on low carb for a while but had few to many treats and couldn't really be bothered to continue but when i realised i had put 10lbs back on i decided it was time to start again. One of the best recipes i found was cinnamon muffins here. That site also has loads of others like almond pancakes and chocolate brownies. Yummy :)

John David Hrab said...

Eating carbs is an addiction that is as powerful as any drug addiction. You can't beat yourself up when you go on a bender. Just get back on that wagon and realize that there will be times that you don't eat the way you planned. The key is never falling back into the trap of doing it every day for weeks on end.

LCHF chef William said...

Goof luck man! Keep away from those carbs, though! If you need inspiration check out my blog (and follow) or youtube channel http://www.youtube.com/user/LCHFWilliam (and subscribe) for some videos where I attempt to cook and entertain at the same time...
Cheers
William

CMC said...

oh my gosh.... I just realized I forgot to put in the vital wheat gluten in the pumpkin cheesecake. It is already in the oven for 8 minutes.... Anyone know what will happen? everything is going wrong this week!!! Help!

Daron said...

Not much we can do to help... I suspect your cheesecake will work just find without the wheat gluton. It could be a little more moist (like a pumpkin pie) but there is pleanty of egg and such in it to hold the thing together. Let us know how it goes....

CMC said...

thanks so much for the positive vibes. So far, it hasn't leaked out of the pan :>) or anything.

I'll let y'all know how it goes...pumpkin pie texture is fine with me if it holds and doesn't melt away.

CMC said...

I JUST had to test it out (no vital wheat gluten)so I cut it with the floss as suggested. It worked great. It's not very pumpkin tasting but it's good. I used a little less Splenda..about a 1/3 cup less as I was still afraid of a 'taste' so it isn't REAL sweet but very rich.

It will have one less slice for tomorrow but at least it passed and I didn't have to make another dessert besides the usual apple cake.

LowCarbMan said...

I had a falling out for St. Patrick's Day dinner. Is it typical to gain so much in 1 day, then lose it the next day (and more) when you get back on the band wagon the next day? Is it a measurement error in the scales? For details, see http://lowcarbman.blogspot.com/2011/03/st-pattys-day-disaster.html